It's my party and I'll cry if I want to!!  While the time leading up to turning 40 was a bit emotional for me, I had a wonderful, relaxing day for my actual 40th birthday back in May.  I think we've all been pretty bummed that our plans or visions for this year haven't been able to happen, so I have been pretty bummed about not having a 40th birthday party yet. When the day shall c…